carry on!

to stand up amidst the crowd that goes on along their way, of which nothing is going in the same direction as yours -- can you withstand it? Will you carry on to the path the light has shown you? or will you simply blind yourself and pretend you don't see the light, pretend you don't hear Him calling you, and just go with the flow of the crowd? "wow!" you say to yourself, "at least i don't have to pressure myself on one direction, because with the crowd, i can choose from so many ways to conquer."

you can have your way -- an ownership of your path. And because you feel so much in control of your life this way, you forget altogether the light you saw, and just carry on with the path you chose for yourself. carry on lad! go on as far as you can with your chosen path. carry on with your compromises of making things still in accordance to Him, when you know you are fooling no one but yourself, because the path you took is not even parallel to the one He shows you. and in a few minutes time, i shall ask you: "are you happy?" if you are, then why do you still have those moments of silence? why do you seem to look back and think how it could have been had you followed Him? why do you seem to look for answers along your way, when deep down you know you will never find them where you're walking at the moment? Could it be that you're searching at the wrong place? could it be that you're looking for the wrong happiness -- that which isn't happiness at all, but a mere distorted reflection of that one true happiness?

Don't go so far dear child, for you haven't totally lost your way. It is Him still calling you that you feel uncomfortable with the path you walk upon. It is Him reaching for your hand that you feel a sense of imbalance as you walk on your chosen road. Reach for Him and you will find rest, reach for Him and you will find the answers you are looking for. And i tell you, you will never be confounded as you see Him, as you let Him embrace you with His love, as you let Him enter your life. He's been knocking at your door, but what has kept you from opening it for Him, when He has never delayed a single second to open His doors for you everytime you knock. Open your doors and you will never find a reason to close on Him again. Go on with your search for Him, He's been waiting for you. It wouldn't matter to Him which roads you took before you got to Him, what matters is you found your way to Him again. And when that moment comes, whatever struggle you partake in is just a piece of a jigsaw puzzle that completes the picture of that one true happiness with Him.