cold whisper

you sit like a crumpled paper
trying to take as little space as possible
you try to keep yourself warm
but a cool wind blows through your ear
as if to whisper something you don't wish to hear
and the very thing you long to hear...
try as you might to keep it away from you
it grows with you, but not within.
it grows apart from you, but so much for you.
you nudge it as if it isn't yours.
and yet you long to embrace it as if the world has
forever hid it from you.
you feel and yet you don't understand.
the emotions inside well up to your utmost being
but nothing has ever made you stable as this before
you've lost all your sense of rationality
but it feels like as if everything's in its right place.
you get sensitive with almost anything your body senses perceive
and yet you get so numb
that you can't feel the cold wind
piercing through every inch of your body.
you embrace yourself
trying to keep everything to yourself
keeping the outside world away from you.
and it dawns to your senses
how you reached your defeat...
how the coldness of the wind overwhelmed your whole being
and yet has kept you warm from the beginning.
you stand up not feeling an inch of weariness.
everything's normal as they should
feeling as complete as before.
you look at the clock
and see how so much time has passed
then you walk on with your life...