"UP Graduate"
I've been asking my brother how he feels after graduation, and he kept saying, "nothing. it feels ordinary". I guess, I just couldn't get the right feeling after graduation. There are some occasions that bring out naturally what you feel about it, but this one, it brings out the grayness of how I feel.
There was a brief moment last night that I felt happiness in its deepest seat in my heart. It was when I envisioned my dad to be with us during the celebration. How he would have looked at us, his three children, his very own graduates. Being the dad that I know, I'm sure he would have related his own experience over and over and over and over again to all of us. "0.02 na lang, cum laude na 'ko" as he would always tell us. Pa'no ba 'yan, Dad, graduate kami ni kuya ng cum laude? I would always compete with my dad and his academic achievements. He, in return, would compete with me, but in the end, would pat my back and say, "ang galing mo, hindi ko kaya 'yun." My dad, with much pride over us his children, humbles himself from his own achievements. Maybe it's high time that I give this back to you. This is your honor, Dad, not mine.
After much thought on my mixed emotions, I realized it doesn't really matter that I decipher how I feel about it. There's a today that needs to be lived. And this today, just as any other day, is as ordinary but as important. Graduation for me is not a mark of break from academic stress, because for sure there will be more and even worse when I get to med proper. A day after my graduation, I find myself still scheduling out my errands and tasks. A day after my graduation, I still find myself waking up and asking myself "what do i need to do today?"
And well, a day after my graduation, I find myself thanking Him for not having left me on my own, and asking Him for much grace that I get through the coming days with much meaning and cheerfulness.
There was a brief moment last night that I felt happiness in its deepest seat in my heart. It was when I envisioned my dad to be with us during the celebration. How he would have looked at us, his three children, his very own graduates. Being the dad that I know, I'm sure he would have related his own experience over and over and over and over again to all of us. "0.02 na lang, cum laude na 'ko" as he would always tell us. Pa'no ba 'yan, Dad, graduate kami ni kuya ng cum laude? I would always compete with my dad and his academic achievements. He, in return, would compete with me, but in the end, would pat my back and say, "ang galing mo, hindi ko kaya 'yun." My dad, with much pride over us his children, humbles himself from his own achievements. Maybe it's high time that I give this back to you. This is your honor, Dad, not mine.
After much thought on my mixed emotions, I realized it doesn't really matter that I decipher how I feel about it. There's a today that needs to be lived. And this today, just as any other day, is as ordinary but as important. Graduation for me is not a mark of break from academic stress, because for sure there will be more and even worse when I get to med proper. A day after my graduation, I find myself still scheduling out my errands and tasks. A day after my graduation, I still find myself waking up and asking myself "what do i need to do today?"
And well, a day after my graduation, I find myself thanking Him for not having left me on my own, and asking Him for much grace that I get through the coming days with much meaning and cheerfulness.
2 ruffleschmuffled:
cum laude pala kayo, congratulations!
nice pareho pala kame GWA ni doc.
bawi na lang sa medskul.
mabuhay ang mga non-honors haha
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